This blossoming took time and I am just getting started…
You don’t just put a seed in the ground and then rip it out the next day because it didn’t bloom. –A. Hicks
This blossoming took time.
Time when I felt lost
Time when I couldn’t see the light
It took times of darkness, anxiety, depression.
It took times of numbness
It took time of searching for the way out of my own mental confines….
Of my own story…. And the stories inherited from my familial tribe.
This blossoming took friendships – it cost friendships.
It took hearing that I wasn’t fun to be around.
It took learning cognitive science to start scratching at the surface of my own mental caging.
It took conscious effort to listen to my own thoughts
It took months of EFT
It took feminine awakening
It took addiction and wanting to stop
It took ahyuasca
It took aura readings
It took the patience and generosity of really good friends
It took moving apartments and countries (multiple times)
It took 4 months in India.
It took my own damn willingness to look at myself and realize that I wanted to change
It took getting sick of myself, my complaints and my unhappiness
It took ONE BIG FAT DECISION.
It took going inside
It took I don’t know how many long walks alone
It took even more self-awareness
And then emotional awareness
And then thought-awareness
It took visioning
It took feeling into it
It took loving my whole life
It took countless filled journals
It took daily meditation and dedication
And it took a whole hell of a lot more than this…
This is just to say: You have to start somewhere…
You may not always see a clear path,
But you have to start anyway.
You have to start listening to yourself.
There might be a lot standing in your way
And, it might even look good from the outside:
A 6-figure career, but you’re suffocating with 60 hour weeks.
You feel rushed through life without enough time,
Yet you desire to make a genuine contribution,
Or spend more time with your children…
You hear a calling for change.
You hear a calling for more.
I can reassure you
– that inner voice that is calling you –
it cannot be ignored,
it can only be put off.
It’s really up to you to choose the timing of your path.
You can’t rush it.
I have a feeling, though, that you are ready.